in my NEW, WEIRD name

weird! really weird... getting married has ups and downs, highs and lows, advantages and disadvantages... and peace of mind and confusion. yes, you read it right. confusion. now that i am married, everyone calls me in my new family name.

As the first day of classes starts, i am really obliged to introduce myself to my class. And I kind of forgot that I am now, in my new weird name! Ms. Formoso that is. Well,since I was a kid, I loved that my family name - BACANI. A true Bacani in heart and mind. Now?! Well, things kind of messed up suddenly with my name. As I proudly wrote my name on the white board, "Ms. Rona Bacani", one of my students (who seems so nice and shy, that's what my very first impression about her) raised her hand nervously. I frowned. I thought it was a bad move to ask something in the first day of class and the fact that it was my very first time to teach! I gave the whole class an obvious fake smile then asked slowly. "How may I help you Misss?! Any question or violent rection?". Not knowing that the kid was one of the consistent Dean's Lister. "Annie Ma'm(not her realname)." I then answered,"Okay Annie, what it is that you would like to ask?". She replied, "Ma'm, I think we are in the wrong class. Can you excuse us for a while? We'll just check if there might have misunderstanding with our schedule. We are expecting that a new Instructor, Ms. Formoso will be our teacher for Computer Architecture", still she's nervous. I can hear her breath from a reasonable distance. Gush! I suddenly blushed with shame! I forgot that I am now married! Dumb me! If most girls would excitedly write their names down with the name of the man of their dreams(including me. I remember doing this when I was in third grade), here I am a freak who have forgotten about it! I then realized I was a big Ms. So-So-Short-Time-Memory-Loss again! I was waiting for this moment to be able to brag to everyone that I am now Ms. Formoso and I married the man I loved so much! I am a real jerk! So, slowly, to be able to gain posture from what I call 'A real jerk in me!', I picked up my blue white board marker and added a dash after 'Bacani' and then I wrote in all caps: "FORMOSO". And I smiled widely, I can even feel my gums are showing too. I just told them that I was only getting their attention if they are aware of things such us coming to the right class on the first day of school 'cuz most students don't care at all. Whew! I hope they baught it.

... I guess it's not fair! why do guys carry their name all through their life while us girls have to gave up everything including our name! When men gets old being singlethey are called BACHELORS. While us, girls - when wegrew old and alone, they will Lable us as OLD MAIDS! Damned &#*@#! I guess some congressmen should research on this case and do something about it. A girl's name is all that she has, hehehe. just kidding guys. but some how true?! Well, being in love and happy with someone you really love, this doesn't seem an issue. honestly, it feels so nice when everybody at school, at churchor even just by the by stander on the streets calls me in my new name...

... Though sometimes, you still have to call me twice or may be thrice before I'll respond back to you when you call me: "Ms. Formoso"

New Job... New Life?

Things happens so fast. Yesterday I was just applying for a job, now i'm working! Astig! God is good. No matter how bad I was a few days ago, He still blessed me hehehe...

The weird thing is... I am hired to taech! Again, teach. T-E-A-C-H. Though last semester, I was also given the chance to work as a college instructor but I declined it because I have stuffs to take care at AFP (I was not yet officially resigned from AFP then). Today?! weird, now Iam teaching. As in, this is super weird. Any way, wish me the best that I'll excel in this field, I hope I'll do okay. Thanks to the love and support of my dearest husband. I owe it to him why I have the guts to apply for this job. I know he prayed so hard for me to be hired. It's nice to have a loving hubby like him hehehe...

anyway 'till next time. Got some stuff to take care.

grr...

last week was not really my week. i was out of control. i was easily angry. pissed off. hated almost everyone. it all started with a memory. a very bad idea to remember something hateful and regretful. it concerned me everyone, every detail, almost everything. even 'si manong guard' where me and my dearly husband bought our vehicle --- 'di ko pinalampas'. i shouted at him to the most lowest cursed i've ever remembered. God forgive me, but yes, i have been so bad. i even hated to death my husband... always reminded him how he makes me feel. i nagged him day and night about his so called victim which now a ghost that continued to haunt me today...

... i guess it was a week of insanity. i lost my very self last week and a few of myself today.

today is monday, hope i (i mean "WE", since now my life is being lived with my spouse) will start and end nicely. thank God he moves in very bright and mysterious ways.

now, i'm humming the song 'virtual insanity' hehehe..