Monday, August 06, 2007

Girl or boy?

On the sixth-month of my pregnancy, Dr. Bugante told us that we might have a girl. But she cleared that it is not yet official. She has to check on my next check-up. But because we’re two crazy and excited about our baby, we let everyone know that we will have a girl. I even made a blog about it announcing that it was a girl. My sister in-law, ate Che also bought girlie dresses for our baby at Dubai, knowing that it was a girl. I was wishing that it had to be a boy instead. But still I am happy that it was a girl as long as she became healthy and smart! On the 7th month Dr. Bugante, made another unofficial statement that it may be a boy! Now, I am happier. Even on my 9th month of pregnancy, It is still not yet confirmed if it’s a boy or girl, because our baby always hides his/her gender during ultra-sound. May be our baby wanted to just surprise everyone when he or she comes out.

… I hope he is a healthy and very smart baby is a boy!

Thursday, August 02, 2007

The beauty and madness in pregnancy...

By the time Mac and I found out that I am pregnant, everything became different. Everything from nice became nicer, more beautiful and lovelier. It seems all things around us became perfect.

But not for a while…

Being pregnant, feels so different. The other sides of those/these nice things we are enjoying are covered with fears, anxiety, low-self esteem, and doubts. I am glad my husband never left my side and has enormous patience and understanding toward my pregnancy panics and negativity. Though some books suggest, depressions and weirdness of attitude and emotions during pregnancy are just psychological – meaning a state of mind or in layman’s term pure unexplained feelings without basis! I am totally skeptic about it at times. It is just a feeling that (I think, if not probably not sure I just felt it naturally) is something unusual but is really filling me out normally. I won’t contest to full effort of research and study of world-renowned doctors, psychologists, and every person who has gained their PhDs through the years. But, I won’t accept that the rest of the pregnant women and me are insane. I think we became too much emotional on things and very sensitive because something is growing inside us. A lot of things are changing physically, perhaps all those insecurities and other emotional stuff we feel are normal! Now that my tummy is big enough, I now cannot wear the dresses I used to wear. I now have bloated feet at the end of the day. I now always had cramps in the morning, where I could not move my lower extremities. Mac has to massage my feet for 5 to 15 minutes. He has to wake up from his deep sleep just to do it. He also has to suffer things with me; he has to always walk with me every time I need to have my regular exercise (though I know he’s already tired from work, he has to). I also now suffer from sudden lost of appetite for the first three months, and then I became so voracious (everyone who new me knows I am really a heavy either even I was not yet pregnant but I think I have a larger stomach now). And almost all stuff became limited. Especially with foods, there are a lot of food and drinks that I loved so much that I have to give up during this stage: Coke (yes, the soda must be in that brand!), black forest cake, chocolate cakes and candies, any recipe of mongo (whether with an “ampalaya” leaves or sweetened pande-mongo), and ice cream! And I am always reminded to eat in small amount (In short, diet!) or replace my rice and other carbo-intake with friuits and lots of vegetable! I have to drink and eat stuff, which I hated to eat before: vegetables like “ampalaya”, “malunggay leaves”, and a lot more. I also have to drink Anmum (a pregnancy milk supplement) at least two times a day, which tastes oddly different. And do not forget the 2 to 3 vitamins and food supplement tablets I should take everyday. I cannot leave the house without a chaperon (as if I am sick and imbecile). And for my husband he too is affected, he should always send me to work and pick me up everyday. I could not travel as far as I wanted to, because they will always remind me that the baby will have the possibility of having a cleft palette (hello, cleft palette is hereditary!) or I may give birth in no time. And worst, I am not allowed to criticize or just give a negative opinion on someone because our baby may turn out to be like the person I criticize, huh!?

Well looking at the other side or the bright side of being pregnant is not always a burden. Forget the fact that we feel always insecure (self-confessed), not feeling well, tired, and a hundred more bad feelings a preggy woman feels. Being pregnant? Well, if you are in a very long line in a grocery store, people tend to be kinder and have their place in line given to you. Instead of waiting for my turn for 30 minutes, ala! I already had my groceries be punched in 5 minutes. Same way is also happening with lines in banks, canteen and other places where you have to fall in line first before getting served. Plus do not forget that preggy women always got the freebies, discounts and additional items when we buy (based on my experience, salesmen and salesladies always give in to my request to either give me a discount or a “paaman” on the items I bought). And when I am walking carrying with either heavy or very little load with me? Someone will be always there to the rescue to carry my stuff for me. I also loe\ved it when during lunchtime or “merienda”, there would really be someone who is always generous to share their food with me. I am always treated out for food. Oh, those sumptuous foods! If you are not pregnant, these things will just seldom happen to you, unless you are very cute, and very pretty.
It is also a good thing to be pregnant because, you will be seeing your husband do everything you wished him to do. They became sweeter (though my hubby is very sweet with me even before we were married), full of patience and very enduring. It’s a nice feeling that while you are experiencing all the negativity about being pregnant; someone who’s dearly with you is just right beside you enduring the same sacrifices and hardships.

Two to Three weeks to go before our baby comes out and all my burden of carrying this heavy load in my tummy will be gone soon. I may have experience less cramps and bloating of feet after I give birth. I may finally wear clothes I like and eat or drink foods that I love. But somehow, I am still saddened for the fact that the nice things about being pregnant will be gone. How I wish it were easy to get pregnant again and enjoy the bright side of being pregnant. But it is not that easy. Back to reality, we have to provide our baby the financial stuff he needs and of course the love of parents that he deserve. And with that, we are just starting to learn yet when he comes out

Monday, April 02, 2007

We have Twins?!

The Question

I got to chat with my former officemate last week. As usual she is still the same person I knew, super-‘kulit’! Well, I’ve always known Helen for that. She either always teases me or makes fun of being my ‘reyna ng kasablayan’. While having a quick-chat with her she puffed-up a big, big question (by the way, that was during my most busiest week – deadline. Well, nothing can harm me except being late with my deadline but at least it became an outlet with the pressure. Well- justified? Hahaha!). “Are you already pregnant? How long are you bearing the baby in your tummy?” I can feel the warmness of my ears. Without looking into a mirror, I knew it reddened. “Common on, answer it! There’s nothing wrong with my asking you’re married already”, she continued. As far as I remembered, we bid our goodbyes without me answering her question.

More Questions

Helen’s not the only person who wanted to know if I am pregnant already. Since we announced our supposed to be secret marriage (not until we got married at church) to everyone, everybody is always asking I am already pregnant. Even those people who we just met and we just knew by faces are really itching to know if we bear the fruit of our love.

The Real Story

It was 12th of December, year 2006. I was really pissed-off and dismayed with my husband the night before, I already decided to go back to Manila and work at a company where my college buddies work as IT Professionals. The offer was good, very good. I think, with the goodness of offer, in a year or two, I may have bought my brand new car. I called it quit for my so-called fairy-tale-like and whirl-wind marriage. It was a quick decision to get married and a quick mind to call it quits. My decision that time was final, though, he begs to death that I should stay (if not, he’ll still follow wherever I go. I believed him so because he’s also about to quit from his work here at Gensan). It was past six in the morning and we are both in a hurry for work. While waiting for him to get ready (he always drop me by the school everyday using our baby raider), I checked on the pregnancy kit I bought after our wedding 14 months ago. First, I was so confused on the result. It says if there are two lines, it’s positive, else it is negative. I can see two lines but the lower line is kind of blurred. So, I just thought that the kit was just not working properly. But then, back of my mind I knew I have the symptoms of so-called morning sickness and the frequent peeing from time to time. I told him about that and he was very happy and asked me to stay instead. I nearly bought a ticket for Manila but to make the long-story short, it was not pushed-through. “I guess I have to stay for the marriage and baby’s sake”, as I thought twice. He then promised to make the most to somehow make-up for the things I couldn’t accept from his past. He just wanted us to stay together as we promised – “… for better or for worse...” as we oath.

First Christmas with the ‘Formosos’

My husband told me not to break the news yet especially with his mama. He’d like to surprise everyone. But he too, can’t resist informing his colleagues at school. Now, everybody else here at Gensan knows about my being pregnant. We are both very happy. We stayed at their house at Marbel for the 2-week-holiday vacation. We spent it with his family. Mama Puring and Luming (that I was asked to start calling my hubby’s mom and aunt ‘mama’), Kuya Jo (who’s like he came from abroad because of the overflowing gifts and ‘pasalubongs’ he brought with him from Manila), and Ate Che’s Tala (who is named by my hubby as a war-freaked-li’l-child. True she’s adorable but tacky-witty little kid). When his family (now, my family too) already knew about the wonderful news, they all encouraged us to check-out on the nearest doctor to confirm how old the baby in my tummy. It’s also so touching and sweet that Mama Luming bought me a big box of milk supplement for pregnant women and more than a kilo of green mangoes. It made me special (honest!).

It was after lunch of 27th of December when we decided to go to an OB. Actually; it has been weeks already that we both are searching for the best doctor in town. We searched Gensan, then at Marbel, and back to Marbel for the search. Finally, my husband’s best friend who works in a local hospital at Marbel told us that he he knew two best OB’s – Dr. Bugante and Dr. Cocjin. We eventually went to Dr. Cocjin instead. When we approach her clinic’s door, I noticed her T-shirt (that she wore inside her so-called doctor’s white trench coat) a theme of her alumni’s reunion. Coincidence that we (I, my husband and Dr. Cocjin) were graduates of same high school. So, there it goes, we kind of chatted a while about the reunion before she generally checked me up.

After counting how old our baby is (according to her, the baby is already 4 weeks and 3 days), she then asked me to lie-down on a stretcher-like bed and applied a cream-paste-like liquid on my tummy. In a few seconds we can see the inside of my stomach on the computer’s monitor (though, we only see a mere black and white sight. We wanted to have a 3D or 4D ultra sound check-up but we haven’t found anything yet either at Marbel or Gensan). We actually saw two bean-like images on my tummy! The doctor announced in an official manner, “congratulations to both of you. You are indeed pregnant. And there may have possibility that it may be twins! See those two images?” pointing on the bean-like image on the monitor. “Those are sacs on her womb” she continued explaining. She then asked us if either of us has relatives (even to the farthest consanguinity) who are twins. My husband excitedly (but not really showing it) answered, “Yes doc, my father has a twin brother”. Smilingly he hid his smile from us. After the ultra-sound, Dr. Cocjin clarified that she was not yet sure if we’ll have twins but there may have big possibilities we’ll have twins. She then gave us supplementary vitamins for me and my baby (or babies incase we have twins).

We went home very happy and delighted for the good news. My husband proudly announced that we’ll have twins (even the doctor was not yet sure about it, he still bragged about it) with great pride and boastfulness (he may not admit it but I can see he is). I too was so joyful. I even hurriedly sent text messages to all my family at Manila. As well, as I called up my dearest Lola to tell her the good news! I once dreamed of having twins. I remember having twin babies like Aga and Charlene. I’d also love to have kids who’ll say “Andres, what’s your Christmas wish?” The other kid replied wittingly, “We have a mom, we have a daddy. What can we wish for?” I hope you are familiar with that TV commercial. So, sweet!

A Call

I had a strange feeling before that my husband’s family won’t like me because of the whirl-wind-romance my husband and I have staged. I was afraid they’ll hate me (if not us) for allowing to get married to their youngest family member without even informing them or even my own family. It’s a nice thing that I get to meet Kuya Jo last December. He’s nice and treated me on a very civil and respectful way. I know it’s not a miracle that in an instance we’ll become close but at least everything went well with him and the rest of the family. I was so happy when I finally got to talk to Ate Che on the phone, my hubby’s big sis. She’s quite nice like kuya Jo. It’s nice that even it’s a long distance call she still have time to talk to me. We may have talked for a very quick moment but I can feel her sincerity. I was so touched when she suggested looking for another OB instead.

Bad News is Still Good News!

Though we kind of liked the first doctor we went to, we took Ate Che’s advice. A month after that, we eventually went to another doctor, as advised that we have to visit a doctor at least once or twice a month. This time we gave it a shot to come to Dr. Bugante’s clinic. True indeed, she is really good as far as we heard people said she is. As any regular check-up on OB, they usually used ultra-sound to check on the baby. My husband and I informed Dr. Bugante about the last check-up we had that we may have twins. So when the ultra sound device was placed on my tummy, we were excited knowing that we will be able to see the two so-called sacs on my tummy. All our eyes were steady and staring on the small screen. Bad, it’s so weird that we now only saw one sac! Where the other sac did went? In down-hearted voice, I can also feel her dismay to inform us that we won’t have twins. After the long interview, briefing and schedule of visits and taking of my supplements, we then went home. Broken hearted, though happy knowing we will still be parents after 8-months. At least we’ll have less expense. Looking on the brighter side though, hehehe.

The Official Announcement

We planned to announce my pregnancy may be next month or next when we already knew the gender of our little angel. Due to insistent public demand and frequently asked question (hehehe, we too can’t resist on spilling the good news), we re now letting everyone know that we are proud mom and dad of our little angel whom we are expecting this coming August!

We’ll just let you know in soonest possible time (bonggaceous! hehehe) if we already confirmed the gender of our cutie baby.

Good bye for now! Muah!

Thursday, February 01, 2007

I 'Love-Hate' Wowowie

I grew up with Eat Bulaga. This is the only show I remember so far, that stayed on air for the longest time. I remember watching it on a black and white boob tube, until televisions became colored. I even dreamed of joining the Little Miss Philippines, imitating Aiza Segguera's move and witty speeches. Even co-hosts of the said program comes and goes, me and my family never really gave up on Eat Bulaga. Even we are loyal ABS-CBN followers, when Eat Bulaga moved out of the station - we still watched them from the other station. That's how we loved and liked Tito, Vic and Joey. There is something about that trio that make us laugh and feel happy. Before, I was thinking nothing can beat them with their funny antics . I thought this admiration and loyalty will never end. Until ABS-CBN launched the new format of Wowowie were less television celebreties but more funny and lively contestants and audiences. I loved it! We all loved it. Majority of my family and friends will attest to that. There is never a time the audience or contestants of the afternoon show has not made us laugh to death. I am thinking that Johnny Manahan or whoever thought about the concept of making ordinary people (usually the contestants) the center of the show, was a great and excellent idea! Those contestants are the stars, who are really effective comedian. "True People" as they say.

But when I saw Willie Revillame was being interviewed on one of the ABS-CBN's show (I think, that was 'The Correspondence') regarding the Ultra stampede a year ago; my hair raised. While he was giving his condolences, and humble words of regrets and sorries for what had happened; I never felt his sincerety. I could never connect with his humble and very apologetic words he uttered... The next day, because I could not still get through of what I watched that night; I told my co-teachers, officemates and even students of how I viewed and felt about the interview. Surprisingly, they all agreed with my feelings. I, (and those people who have same opinion about the interview) think that it is best for ABS-CBN to let Willie Revillame not to talk at all. WOwowie's value became low. ABS-CBN or may be Willie (or Willie's friends and family) may not agree with me (I mean 'us'), but making the host of Wowowie, Mr. Willie Revillame talk in behalf of ABS-CBN may not be a very wise idea. I hope, ABS-CBN will be aware of this. Or anyone from the network may have the chance to read this blog and inform their management, so that they may consider how we feel about Willie. We are not requesting Willie to be kicked out of the show (to be fair with him, we still think he's funny and able to let the funny side of their contestant be stimulated by him and let it out). We just wanted ABS-CBN to somehow take a look and plan well if it is a good idea to let Willie speak again on behalf of the said tragedy.

Anyway, the good thing is... I still love Wowowie. I still enjoy and I still laugh 'till I drop when watching the show. That doesn't stop me from liking the show. I am just hoping ABS-CBN may have considered and thought about what we felt. We may not love everthing about Wowowie, but of course we may not hate everything too.

'Just a kudos to ABS-CBN for the best noon time show --- Wowowie!!!